One of the major obstacles I have faced my final semester of senior year is being okay with the fact that life is SCARY! And like I said, that it is OKAY!!!! It is okay to be scared. It is okay to ask for help. It is okay to be unsure, nervous, anxious and all those other feelings that come along with it because as much as I feel alone in my own little world, there are millions out there feeling the same way, a good 5% all living in the Athens area with the word "graduation" written a few pages away in their agenda.
I think I grew up with this idea that heroes never got scared. The feeling of nerves never overcame any person who went down in history, so why would I let it get to me? I am the girl who randomly goes and jumps off of 141 foot bridges in New Zealand and thinks cage diving is a good time. I couldn't possibly let a word as simple as "adult" be the death of me. But, as unfortunate as it sounds, it's eating me more alive than any shark would if I ever went cage diving. Okay...maybe that's not true. But it sure feels like I have had one leg chomped off and constantly trying to swim to the top but that pesky word "adulthood" or "real word" keep eating at my other leg. As much as I hate to admit it, senior year IS scary. And I am SCARED.
Deadlines...job applications...living plans...the list goes on. People always said the real world is a different kind of stress, and boy am I feeling that! But like many people who hate admitting they are scared when they truly are, I don't like help. I don't like to act weak. And I sure don't like the feeling of someone telling me what to do in instances like this. So yes, I am scared, but please do not hold me.
I think the thing about heroes isn't the fact that they don't get scared, it's the fact they know how to prosper through the fear to turn it into greatness. Now I am not trying to pull a Hercules move and save the world, but getting a job and a life plan would be nice. Senior year is a time of sink or swim. I guess I better learn to swim with one leg if I am going to make it out alive.